Fall, Get Up….repeat!

You know I can’t remember how many failures that I have had in life.  Honestly too many to count.  I never kept track. However they are in the back of my mind.   I’ve been falling a lot trying new things wakeboarding and found myself only thinking about the falls.  Thinking about my fails!  Why????  Well for starters if it weren’t for my many falls I wouldn’t learn anything new.  Not to mention what a crappy way to think.  If you feel like beating yourself up just think of the many fails you’ve had.  How can I possibly move forward in life if I continue to think of all of my fails, or the possibility of future fails.  Those fails just make the successes so much sweeter, so much more deserved.  Its the getting back up after a fall that makes us feel like a rock star or super hero!  So rather than focusing on the falls I’m gonna relish in the fact that I got back up and that I tried!!!

Matt and I are getting ready to take some risks as I mentioned in the last post about a life in Boler Trailer.  Taya my girl is taking a risk heading off to university to begin a life of her own.  Tristan… well he is still pretty fearless but risks his ego getting bruised as well as his body when he tries new stuff on his wakeboard and skateboard.  My kids and husband inspire me to take chances and try new things.  We are lucky to have the support of each other.

With only a few weeks of summer I invite you to eat a big shit sandwich!
Try something new.
Toss the fear of failing aside and enjoy a new challenge.
It could be anything from trying a new sport to sharing your art with the world, or trying a new recipe.

Not sure who said it but “the only chances you regret are the ones you didn’t take”


1st comp and I ate it hard before I even got up on my board.  Hahaha!!!

1st comp and I ate it hard before I even got up on my board. Hahaha!!!

A night of Girl Talk and and Thunderstorms

One of my most favorite places in the world to be is on my boat.
When I’m on it I forget about my job, about someone complaining to the city about our chicks, about the laundry that needs to be done, the emails that need to be read, and only do I think about all the things I am so grateful for having in my life.  There are the obvious ones like my kids, my husband, my parents, then there are the things that I don’t always stop to think about.  Such as the wind that can actually make my boat move, the water that not only my boat floats on but that I can jump into and swim, where I realize how small I am in this huge world but can see how my actions can cause ripples. The Chubby Bean is 19 feet of pure bliss and clarity.  Its also a great place to have a good sleep!

Last night I was sitting on the boat reading when I heard someone walking down the dock……I couldn’t have been more excited when I saw Taya’s face.  She climbed aboard and got comfortable.  Taya and I had no intentions on sleeping on the boat but we started talking.  Talking about her report card and being on the honor roll, boys, her upcoming birthday, our hair and just life in general.  It was one of the best nights I have had with my daughter in a long time.  The older she gets the more I wish I could hold her like a baby again, the more I realize how lucky I am to spend time with her…any time at all, because I now understand how precious time really is.  Taya will be going into grade 12 I’m running out of time or the times are just changing.  Either way it can be overwhelming.  Last night is a night that I will probably talk about at Taya’s wedding of some other huge life event.

While the lightening flashed and the thunder rolled Taya and I drifted to sleep swaying to the motion of the water.

Tonight is going to be another great night!!!  We are off to see our friend Tony of Great Lake Swimmers at Massey Hall!  Thank you to his family for inviting us to come along!

Give your loved ones an extra hug day cause….why not!


On the Chubby Bean with The Bean

On the Chubby Bean with The Bean

Woot Woo! I did on my own!!!!

Bojour my lil Luv Bugs!
Tonight I am so excited to tell you guys about something that makes me smile from ear to ear!

As I had told ya about 2 weeks ago, we puy our sail boat in the water.  Normally I don’t like to go out on the boat without doing a practice run with my Dad first, but I couldn’t take sitting on the dock for another day.  So I just said fuck it!!!!  Before I knew it I had let the lines off and was heading out into the lake all on my own.  It is much safer to have more then one person on the boat however I thought women have sailed across the world on their own so I could totally do this!

I didn’t even sail….I just motered out and threw the anchor out.  Let me tell you that there is nothing more cleansing then sitting on the boat with a good book a glass of cold lemonade, and the silence.  It was awesome.  I took a quick dip in the lake but didn’t stay in very long, its still a little chilly.  After I dried off I sent Matt a text to let him at working letting him know where I was just in case I ran into any problems.  20 min had past and Matt sent a text expressing his shock that I had gone out alone, then his next text was to warn me that there were tornado warnings.  After the last text I looked at the sky and it looked ok, I checked the VHS radio for the weather and didn’t hear any warnings but in the end decided it was best to head in.

I made back to the dock to find my mom waiting to catch my lines which totally made my first time ever docking the boat much easier!

I felt like the king of the world when I landed the boat into the dock!

Yaaaa Me!!


I wasn't totally alone! I had Dexter to keep me company!

I wasn’t totally alone!
I had Dexter to keep me company!

Not everybody is gonna get it

Luv Bugs

Yesterday I was all like “Fuck it!!!!”  and today…well I’m not sure what I am today.  Some changes are easy to make while others can be more difficult.  Such as spending more time with the kids=easy ish……. cutting out junk food not so easy.  What I didn’t really count was other people being barriers.  Not like I was expecting people to jump up and down and say yahoo.  I may have expected people to get it, and some really didn’t get it.  Do I need to explain myself and my priorities to other people, do I need to make them understand.  This applies to the changes that I have made at work as well as the new Drive By photography project I started.

You know what I say???  I say no.  I don’t need to have anyone get it.  What I do need is for may family to get it and for my friends and coworkers to be supportive thats all.  I would do the same for anyone else.  However I must admit and kinda feel great about the few people that commented on my new photo project even the not so positive response was great.  I know this post is kinda all over the place cause I don’t really want to dive into the details of my work day.  If I did this post would make a lot more sense.  Lets just say I had a great day with the customers but the behind the scene stuff wasn’t awesome.

Funny thing that did happen today while at work……..   I’m a cashier and a lil blond cutie pie took a pee right on the floor while I was cashing her mom out.  Poor little thing, her flip flops got soaked. I guess the moral of the post is ya gotta go when you gotta go????

Before I sign off for the night I thought I would add another drive by photo.

upcycle drive by