For Sail?

Once again it has been way to long since I last posted anything.  I hate winter!  What can I say.  Motivation when its cold and dark more than not just doesn’t exist.  My windows are now open, the birds and bees are doing their thing and my baby girl is just weeks from graduating high school.  I am now awake!

Spring not only brings warmer air, and BBQ’s out of the garage but it also breeds new life.  Flowers begin to bloom, the dead lawn starts to show signs of life and tadpoles start turning into frogs.  Well this girl is ready for new things.  I think????

I’ve decided to let go of a few things that I totally love.  For starters my husband and I are selling our old VW Cabriolet convertible.  I didn’t realize how greedy I could actually be.  I’m actually disgusted to say that I drove off two buyers for the car.  I couldn’t figure out why I was doing this.  Didn’t I want to sell it???  Yes, yes I did.  Just didn’t want anyone else to have it.  See I’m gross!  When did I ever start thinking this way?  When I actually realized just how crazy I was acting most potential buyers found other cars and I had a hard time looking into the mirror.  Who had I become….. a person that didn’t want others to have what I had.  Eww just gross.  So I’m over that now having given my head a good shake!  With a somewhat clear head I announced to my husband Matt that I want to sell my boat.  I have to explain that while Matt and I share everything, we do not share the love I have for the water and sailing.  That being said the boat is mine but ours….you know what I mean?

Matt was totally shocked that I was going to sell the boat.  It’s time for new adventures that both Matt and I can enjoy together along with the kids.  The boat feels way different than the car.  It defines a part of who I am….or so I think/thought?  Living pretty much pay cheque to pay cheque I never thought that we could own a boat.  I have always felt so lucky for having it.  Sitting on the boat in the middle of the lake just melts all cares away.  Its a place where my anxiety doesn’t have a home.  While I’m out there I can breath and I mean really breath.  I love it all.  The fresh air, the sails flapping, the feel of the tiller in my hand and the ever so quite hum the boats makes when the boat and I find our groove in the wind.  So I asked my self can a possession actually define who you are.  Well the answer was no.  So I am trying to find my most favorite possession a new home where it will give someone else the pure joy it gave me for the past 8 years.

Its funny I’m turning 37 this year and I’m still figuring out who I am and what kind of person I want to be.

Have a great day lil love bugs!



Living in the sun and water!

Living in the sun and water!

Its all Happening!!!!

This week is just going to kick ass!  It started off with me scoring 98% on a test I had to write for work.  Total weight off of my shoulders.  Tomorrow Matt and I are going to see Belle and Sebastian at Massey Hall.  I bought the tickets as a Christmas gift for Matt.  It seemed to take forever for the day to come but it finally has.
If a concert wasn’t enough its also a short work week thanks to Easter….oh yeah and the weekend is going to be filled with good food, chocolate, friends and family!  EEEeeee!  I’m so excited!
I’m also grateful for all this fun, it helps the time pass….cause OMG….I can’t even type the words without freaking out!  My BFF and I are getting out of the poop weather here in Ontario and heading out for a week of Sun, fun, Sand, Relaxing, Bonding, and Reading in the Dominican!
This girl has been my best friend since high school.  Unfortunately she is a 5 hour drive away from me, so this trip really means the world to me!  Its an entire week of hanging with my girl, with no worries about what to make for dinner, alarm clocks, and appointments.  Its a week just for us!  I honestly have the best family for being supportive and encouraging me to go.  Matt’s doing something for me that I’m not sure that I could do in return.  I’m so in love with this guy its crazy!  Its going to be hard to be away from him for a week.  He really has no idea the extent to what he has given me.   The best part of being a part is coming together again.  Just as much as I am looking forward to my trip, I am looking forward to coming home to Matt and the Kids!

Happy Easter to everyone!
Enjoy your families and the long weekend!


I'm one lucky girl!

I’m one lucky girl!

Its a Wrap

I’m really not one to reflect on the past.  I tend to just look ahead to the next thing.  Sometimes I consider this trait a fault and other times a gift.  Being that this is the first day of a new year I do feel slightly obligated to talk about the future thankfully I’m excited for the next 364 days of tomorrows.

In order to talk about the future I do need to bring up the past.  Not the long ago past but the past few months.  Many of you that read my lil old blog know that I fell in love with wakeboarding this summer thanks to Boarder Pass and the great, inspiring girls of “Fearless Females”!  Once the lake got to cold to play in I found myself dreaming of wakeboarding.  I had these grand ideas that I would lose a ton of weight over the winter to be in better shape for the next season of wakeboarding.  The thing is I was in a total slump.  I went from feeling like I was part of something to feeling lonely and bored.  Realizing that this was the beginning of a very sad winter full of self loathing I decided to beg for two things for Christmas.  I’m not very good about putting myself first, which is part of what makes me a good mom but also isn’t awesome for my well being.  So this is why I decided to beg for two things that I would love to own but would have never bought for myself.

Item #1  a SNOWBOARD  I begged my husband for this.  Every time he asked me what I wanted I said a snowboard.  I only had two requirements.  It had to be pretty and the right size for me.

Item #2 a pair of Hiking Boots.  Good hiking boots.  This I dropped hints to my parents weekly.  I didn’t really care what make they were or where the came from so long as they fit and they felt good to walk in.

Being that I have an amazing husband and parents who love to go for hikes I found both gifts under the Christmas tree!

There was only one reason I wanted these two gifts so badly.  To change my life.  No big deal and maybe too much pressure to put on myself, but what the hell!!!

The snowboard gets me back on a board while I wait to get back into the water.  We don’t have lots of money to spend on lift tickets but it will give me something to look forward to and a reason to consider making healthier choices.  I skied when I was a kid but have never been on a snowboard ever.  Hoping to give it a try next week….weather permitting.

The hiking boots…..well those are all about making healthy choices, about getting outside and enjoying nature.  I got a gift certificate to Mountain Equipment Co-op.  On Tuesday Matt, Tristan and I went to Burlington and hit up MEC.  Love this store so much.  Everything I look at just screams possibilities.  I found the perfect pair of boots.  I took those boots for a hike the next day around the quarry with Tristan and the dogs.

I have this grand idea that these two items will begin to change my life.  A life where I start to question what goes into my body, where I start to believe that I am worth it, a life where the boots feel better on my feet then the couch does on my ass.

Taking this next year one day at a time and not focusing on my failures but celebrating my attempts is how I’m going to live for the next 365 days.  I’ll be looking for reasons to be happy in the moment that I am in.  I’m going to do my best to stop adding salt to my food and choosing anything to drink other than pop.

My hope for everyone is that you find contentment with just being.  That you try new things and care for others.  Also, that you remember to care for our planet and the animals that we share it with and make choices with these two things in mind.

Happy New Year!!!


These Boots Were Made For Hiking!

These Boots Were Made For Hiking!

The Drums….They Played……I Died!

Before you get totally engulfed in what will be an awesome blog post go to iTunes and download anything from “The Drums”.  Once you have done so you can continue to reading while enjoying their music.

Thursday that just passed was the night that Taya, Tristan, Matthew and I headed down to Toronto.  First stop was The Old Spaghetti Factory for dinner.  We all filled up on bread, pasta and salad before we made our way to a show that we couldn’t wait to go see!  “The Drums”  The freaking Drums!!!!  These guys from Brooklyn, NY have been in my shower…at the gym with me…in my car…chilling me out…changing my mood…in my head…on my phone…on my computer…out on our lil’ sailboat…and just about everywhere we go!

To put things into a little more perspective, I need to explain that the show was moved to a different venue than where it was originally.  The show was all ages so we were stoked that the kids could come with us.  The venue was called Adelaide Hall.  Smallish venue with two floors.  The top floor is where the minors…parents of minors…and boyfriends/girlfriends or minors were banished to.  We did have a great view of the stage as the top floor had the middle cut out of it with a railing around the cut out to watch the show.  However, the vibe of the show we thought would be lost as we stood there waiting for the music to start.  We wanted to be in the crowd and dance and sing, so we were a little bummed.

Once The Drums came out and took the stage it no longer mattered where we were standing.  Jonny Pierces’ voice consumed me.  His fluid movements had me in a trance.  At one point he mentioned something about not having the greatest of days that day….you couldn’t tell by the show he was putting on.  After he said that I kinda drifted away just for a moment and realized that this guy whom writes songs that bring a smile to my face, that get my feet moving, and make my drive to anywhere so much better is human and has bad days just like anyone else.  I wondered if he actually realized what his music does for people?  As I said above, The Drums go everywhere I go.  Music invokes thought, inspires, and so much more and the people that are gifted enough to have this power may sometimes forgot what they are actually giving to people.  They are giving us everything.

When I wasn’t singing along or just in sheer awe I took some time to look out in the crowd.  Being one of the oldest at the show I couldn’t help but notice that cell phones and cameras have totally changed how kids behave at a show/concert.  98% of the show I spent actually listening, actively watching, singing and dancing.  The other 2% of the time I noticed kids taking crazy amounts of selfies, texting,  filming and taking photos.  It seemed to me as though they were so worried about telling the digital world where they were and what they were doing that they missed out on so much of the actual experience.  They couldn’t just be.  Just enjoy!  After witnessing this I thought about how difficult it must be to put on a show in front of a group of people taking photos of themselves.  I have a new respect for musicians.   “The Drums”  took it in stride and played what I consider to be the best show that I have ever attended…..and I have been to lots!

I had made a deal with Tristan that if he was able to meet Jonny and have a photo taken with him that he wouldn’t have to go to school the next day.  We waited in a alley behind the venue for about an hour and half and then Jonny came through the back door.  Even though we only spoke to him for 2 min I couldn’t help but feel that he had a kind heart.  I’m not sure why I felt that, but I did.  Tristan, Taya and I took our photos with him and I thanked him for putting on the best show that I have attended and hugged him goodbye.  When he said “Thank You”, I think he meant it.


Jonny Pierce

Jonny Pierce